don't know what to do...
Suddenly she stood at a fork. The way diverted into two different directions. The way on the left side was bright and clear. She could see the things she would have – but also the ones she would not have.
The other way withered in deep fog. She could only see a few metres of it…
She knew she had to chose which way she should take. Her thoughts digressed, seeing the last month and the things that happened there. Pain, a lot of pain. But hasn't this pain been a good thing. In the end...?
Cautiously she made one step, than a second one. After a few steps, she was swallowed by the fog.
long time ago
sooo lang nichts mehr geschrieben und soooo viel passiert in dieser Zeit. Das kann man gar nicht alles aufarbeiten. Viele viele Gedanken. Vielleicht hier ein kleiner Einblick
Und mit diesen Worten wagte sie das Kühnste, was sie je getan hatte, sie sah im geradezu in die Augen. Er machte ihr die Tür vor der Nase zu. Ohne ein Wort. (aus "Die Brautprinzessin" von W. Goldman)
In my place, in my place
Und immer wenn wir traurig waren (und traurig waren wir ziemlich oft) dann gingen wir zu dir nach hause und dann hörten wir die Smiths. (Sumisu - Farin Urlaub)
Falls die Erde wirklich rund sein sollte, warum stehen wir Menschen dann so oft am Abgrund?
"Geht es dir gut?", fragte ihre Mutter.Butterblume schlürfte ihren Kakao. "Prima", sagte sie. "Bestimmt?" wunderte sich ihr Vater. "Ja", antwortete Butterblume. Es gab eine lange Pause. "Aber ich darf nie wieder lieben." (aus "Die Brautprinzessin" von W. Goldman)
Nur Lebendiges schwimmt gegen den Strom.
Es sind nicht die Momente in denen du atmest, sondern die, die dir den Atem rauben. (Will Smith)
So you take a picture of something you see
Was ich haben will, das krieg ich nicht und was ich kriegen kann, das gefällt mir nicht. (Fehlfarben)
Bin ich nur glücklich wenn es schmerzt? Ich schenk dir mein gefrorenes Herz. Ich will das du es für mich wärmst. (Böhse Onkelz)
Ihr Herz war ein verborgener Garten, von sehr hohen Mauern umgeben. (Brautprinzessin)
Let's do the time warp again! (The Rocky Horror Picture Show)
I am I and wish I wasn't (Brave New Wrold von Aldous Huxley)
And you're singing the songs
caterpillars in my tummy?
Well, first of all I have to say that I had a great week-end. On friday I drove to Linda and later we went together with Jaquie to Patti's Party in the Schubert-Helme-Halle. I really enjoyed it although we four plus Jutta were the only one who really danced... But as long as WE are having fun.. why not?!
At 2 am the party was over and at 3am we were at home. Next day my parents picked me up at 11 am and we drove up to Helmstedt. Later my brother had a soccer match but I didn't watch it all the time. It was too hot and the rivals were too good. In the afternoon I phoned with Linda. We talked quite a long time (thank u one more time for listening to me...)
Sunday morning I tidied up my room, after lunch my father and I drove to Barmke. There we played Volleyball... it was super (although I had a circulation problem at the beginning. I think I was on the verge of losing consciousness... was a strange feeling :D). But all in all I really liked to play together with all the others there.
Later at home I tried to learn Religion but I gave it up because I didn't know what I should study. In the evening my family and I were watching the soccer match Germany against Poland. Yeeeah, Germany won with 2:0.
Well... in the last days I have this strange feeling in my tummy. I don't know why... feels like there were little caterpillars in it. Maybe they gonna pupate and become butterflies... Would be nice
*who likes butterflies*
what a great day
Yeah, I got up quite well this morning... I wouldn't have thought, that I would, because I went to bed a bit to late. But maybe I ain't so much grumpy in the morning then I thought.
The Bundesjugendspiele weren't as easy as I would have believed... I thought I could lay in the sun most of the time. But I had to run after the balls, throw them back to the start, scream out how widely the person had thrown and so an.
If you just had do wirte down the metres you had a relaxing work....
But all in all it was very funny.
When every class had been at our point we were allowed to go at home.
Later I ordered some picture from a Photo-Service because I'd bought a great frame in which I will stick lots of pictures...
Maybe I'll go in the city later. I want to have some bubbling things for Pattis present (insider)
See you later...
*thoughtfully but happy*
well.... I was very happy yesterday. We had our referee-test and we all got it done quite well that's great! Now we just have to get the practice and we have finished with this stuff )
Today in school I had a little accident so that I had to go at home earlier because my chest hurts when I breathed. I went to a doctor... I've got a bruise in my ribs. So I'm not allowed to do any sports for a few days... very boring.
So I had a lot of time to think today. And I thought that I really would like to have these supernatural abilities which Edward (from the book "Twilight", "New Moon" etc) has. I think it would be quite interesting to hear the thoughts of some people... that would make some things easier I pretend...
well... tomorrow are the "Bundesjugendspiele" and I won't do any of these challenges. I'll just work at the throw-point :P
And Friday is party in Lutter Patti-blubb is 16 and she'll celebrate it and I'll sleep by Lilou... I'm very happy about these things
I hope the weekend will be great
Now I'll go downstairs...
Well, I feel quite better then I did when I wrote the last entry.
Some problems get loosen by themselfes
And now is weekend, that means: FUN :D
well.... of course I have to study for the referee-course. The theory-test will be next week, on Tuesday. And I'm VERY VERY nervous... .
But I will also visit my godmother (sounds quite strange... it means "Patentante" ). And we are having our last football match on sunday... . I hope everything will be fine. I know for whom I will play this game.
And then, at the afternoon we will play beachvolleyball... I just hope the weather will be fine!!!
I don't want to sit just in front of the computer... the weather is great, time to go out
I thought I've found a friend. Someone really great, someone I could talk to, everytime... . I thought it was a good friend, somebody who would never let me alone, never forget me, ever respect me... . I thought this would be a great summer with this friend. I thought we could do a lot of funny stuff... .
But this isn't the truth. I was mistaken. I can't understand why because there happened nothing... no argument... no failure... . Sometimes I wish that everything would just be the same. I really miss to do things with ths friend. This friend was one, who I could see everyday...that's right... could... not can... . I have other friends, of course, but there aren't many which I could see everyday. Maybe in the summer some more times, but not every day.
I hope I haven't lost you...
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